.... who woke up older

Time comes and goes,

I stay in the same place bros

Never moving forward always same spot 

Gonna start to attack and improve a lot

Don't know how or when

Gotta be soon, feel good again

Only at that point will life be true

People have a lot to say but I only listen to a few

Those I truly admire and hope stay strong

Because the only way to live life is as if it's not that long

Pray for today 

Live for tomorrow

I used to wished that other peoples lives I could borrow

But I can't and now don't wanna, because everyone gonna go through sorrow

And sadness and sometimes happy comez with life that we live

Only thing that we can do is give

To the less fortunate the less smiling

The beats on rhythm that's the phone you hear dialing

To apologize to many in my past

And say fuck you to some that didn't last

But today I know better than I did

It's time to grow up, not time to be a kid

So i won't, Do everything I haveta

Go back to college and fill out my FAFSA

Just really happy at the end

I got a couple people to call friend

Thank you to all my loving friends.  You mean the world to me.  More then the world.

JoeBoy

.... with no direction in life

People think I am a slacker.  People think that I don't want to do anything with my life.  I wish i could line those people up and smack them in the face.  I am sorry to all of you I have let down by not knowing what I want to do in life yet.  I like to write, in case you haven't figured that out yet.  But without a degree it is hard even if you know what you wanna do.  Am I less of a person than everyone else because I dont know yet.  Even at the age of 27?  Maybe I am.  Maybe I will never be as good or as accomplished as a person as you are.  But I will always be kind, I will always be there for you and I will always hold my friends feelings above mine.  So when people ask me what I want to do in my life, I want to be a great friend... and even though some people have strayed..... I have never been a bad friend to anyone.  I just want to provide for me and my own and make sure all of my friends are okay.  If there is anything wrong with that, i don't know what to tell you.  Most of you are so caught up in the rat race to give a shit about anyone.  Well, all i do is care about people maybe to a fault.  If that is my fault, fine, i'll take it.  I just hope that after reading this some of you realize that you are taking life too seriously and have completely lost touch with what is important... good family and good friends.  I feel sorry for you, even though I bet you feel sorry for me bc I have nothing going for me at this point.  I am scared, as a lot of people are, but now there's nothing to be scared of.  I got a couple good friends (barely), and a solid family.  I used to have a ton but they ditched out when it got hard.  So to anyone feeling the same way I do.  It can only get better i suppose.  You are better than you think you are.  You are much better than they think you are.

the struggle of a man who wants to find true love

         Sorry if this all seems a little pessimistic but this is how i feel.  Just know I wish it was a possibility, but I do not think that true love exist.  Sure, you love your family but I am not talking about your family.  I am talking about the feelings of one person towards another.  True love is a myth, a unicorn, a white man that's good at basketball.... it doesn't exist.  There are folks who are compatible, and can live their lives together and have children and be very happy.  But I do not think, I will not make a generalization, I do not think I will ever find true love.  Maybe some of you can, who am I to say you can't, I am just a kid with an opinion.
         But the feeling of love creates an increase in dopamine in your brain.  So if you feel like you are attracted to someone and may like them a lot, or love them... the dopamine in your brain explodes.  Dopamine is the same thing that is released when you use a drug.  So if you're smoking meth or "falling in love" it creates the same biological ends.  I believed in love for a long time.  And maybe the reason I don't anymore is because the person I felt an incredible tie too, a feeling that I have never felt before, love: you may say..... died when she was 15.  I know you might think, "How could you feel and know what love is at such an early age?"  Well, what I felt was awesome.  But I did not know it was love.  Only now do I think that could have been my only shot.  She was an angel.  Truly someone I was in awe of.  So nice, so beautiful, so care free... soo.... special.
          Since then I have had no hope.  The terms, Love and Being in Love are so different that they could not be explained in this forum.  I love many of my friends that are girls and love many of my friends that are guys.  Just know this is only one man's opinion, I hope you are in love with someone right now.  I truly do.  I just have had no experience where I could say that I have seen true love.  There are many couples that love each other that I know.  Maybe what I think is In Love isn't the right definition.  I hope it's not.  To be in love with someone to me means that you could stay in every night with each other and have a great time.  Or when she looks at you, you just want to melt.  Getting lost in her eyes for hours.  Knowing that she would, and you would do anything for each other.  It is depressing to think that there is no True Love... if that is the case then what is there truly to live for?  I have to have hope.  Although as we all know, hope can be the best and worst thing to have.  Well, all I can hope is that there is one more woman on this earth that will change my mind.
          To all of those In Love............. I believe that you are.  I just do not think it is possible for me to be in love.  And I wish all of you the best.

Who toots in a crowded room

SBD.  It is 3 letters that have always scared all of us.  Usually if you hear this letters in this order, you move and you move quick.  But there are some times where you can not let anyone know that you were the one who just let that mistake take place.  In a room with your boss and your coworkers, in a room with priests and nuns (although I would blame the nuns), or just a really awkward trip on the elevator from the first floor to the 20th with the same people.  Everyone knows something that should not have happened has gone down and they try and just carry on with their lives.  They first realize that is an impossible feet to just carry on with their lives in this musk that is floating around watering peoples eyes and making them gag.  But you can not just act like everything is normal.  So i have figured out two methods to get away with this horrible act.  The first may not be "ethical" perse but it will stop anyone from questioning the smell for the rest of the time you have to spend together.  Simple as well, you just stand behind the prettiest girl in the room and wait until some people look back and point at her as if, "Listen, I am standing behind her and believe me, behind this pretty face is a gaseous stomach."  No one will ever question a pretty girl about a horrid smell.  The other fool proof plan is to just completely make people feel bad for you.  Let them know that you have had terrible stomach problems since you were a kid, apologize about what you have made them go through for the past 20 minutes and look so upset that they understand your pain because everyone has been in this situation.  Stories like, It takes me a lot longer to digest than a normal person or I have never understood why this always happens to me (sad face), I am so embarrassed.  So either blame the pretty girl, your boss or take it on the chin like a man.  It is not the worst thing that could happen.  The worst thing that could happen would be for it to happen on a first date.  In which case, while you are at the table with your date, you just stand up and yell, "YOU ARE DISGUSTING!  I CAN NOT BELIEVE YOU COULDN'T HOLD THAT AND TAKE A TRIP TO THE BATHROOM!"  Which is when you leave the money for the food and run as fast as you can out of that restaurant.  Sure, you may hurt the girls feelings but you already blew it with your ass so you shouldn't even be worried about her being your soul mate at that point.  The only time you know it is okay is if a joke is made about it before you can even struggle to defend yourself (or the people you blamed), then just go along with it and laugh and laugh and laugh (while pointing to the pretty girl in front of you).  So now you know how to go about fixing this problem if it may ever happen to you (again).

The struggle of a man who

              Dear friends... I love my head bands.  I have almost 30, just recently counted because I knew at one time I had about 40 but since they are so small they do get left at many places.  But I truly have a head band to match any outfit I want to wear.  Some may say, "Hey Joe, get a fucking life, stop wearing head bands you look like an idiot, you kind of smell bad, I wanna punch you in the face, go play in traffic, I want to rip your arm off and beat you with it..... you get the point.  People do not like the head band.  And I am just here to say, it ain't going no where folks.  I will be 50 and still be wearing a head band.  But the only time I truly wear it is when my hair is in it's awkward phase.  Right now being one of those times.  I can not explain to you my hair and how it looks but i have cow licks on both sides of the front of my hair which makes it pretty hard to.... look good at all.  So when it grows out, I can either part it on one side and look like I was in the movie "Revenge of the Nerds 3", or i can put it in a head band and sort of look like a lesbian.  Personally I would rather look like a lesbian, because at least lesbians like girls. My hair just looks so bad parted.  But I am pleading people, stop trying to start fights with kids in head bands because they're crazy to be wearing them out in the first place, so what do you think we'll do to you?  We will kick your ass that's what!  We will kick your ass and not get a sweaty forehead because we are wearing a headband.  And yes, it is a conversation starter, maybe not a good one... but one none the less.  If I am out with my boys and we are trying to talk to girls all we have to do is wait for a girl to say "Sweet Head Band loser" and then.... we charm them with our smooth talk.  So I take one for the team as well.  

              In conclusion I would just like to say, next time you see a guy in a head band please, dont be so quick to judge.  That kid is making his friends look good (or better than him), getting girls to talk to his friends because of their loser head band friend, and a lot of the girls who see head banders  think that he may be gay and grow more comfortable with them earlier than his friends with no game (or maybe that's just me, whatever.. no matter).  So beware of the head band wearing man, he is well read and has thought of everything you have thought of.  You can not hurt our spirit with your quick zingers or self esteem killers because if we have the balls to wear headbands in public then we are definitely better than you are at making fun of people.  Remember that.  

The struggle of a man's first kiss

The first, as they are called, "french kiss" a man has is one of the most awkward moments in their young lives.  You start by kissing, do not know if she wants the tongue unless she is an aggressive 5th grader.  Then the tongue play starts.  Note: this is right after you found out what happens when you get turned on.   As the kiss gets more intense, and by more intense I mean your tongue is almost up her nose, you are starting to feel that weird feeling downstairs.  So you back away, but keep your upper body connected to hers.  But as a fifth grader you are way to embarrassed to let her know what is "truly" going on.  Even though she probably has older sisters who explained it to her a year before, which would've helped to know (at least in my case).  Then right before the recess bell rings you are asked if you don't like her because you were pulling away the whole time..... which, she doesn't know, but was not the case at all.  You just didn't wanna stab her leg.  At that age it's not like you sit down after the kiss and talk about what you could do to make it better, or how it was for her?  You just think you are the man.  Until lunch time, when everyone is pointing and laughing at the kid who pulls his whole lower body away from the girl he is kissing because he is embarrassed.  Well, that didn't help the embarrassment part at all.  The first kiss a man, and just guessing but a woman has.... if anyone ever says it was the best kiss they've ever had, straight liar.  When you have your eyes open, are barely touching each other except on the lips and just have your hands on her hips like she is your grandmother who you are helping up the steps... it can not be "magical", as we all thought it was at the time.  And I was so bad, I got dumped a week later... even though I didn't know we were going out.  It truly is a very tough time for a kid who has his first kiss, and for me, even tougher.... because I still kiss that way.

the struggle of a man buying condoms

Number one: Why do they have to bee in a metal safe in the middle of the Rite Aid?
Number two: Why does the person at the counter have to yell over the loudspeaker, "I need the key for the condoms!"
Number three: If a woman is at the register, I do not want her to know that I am that small and on top of that, need the kind that makes women pleased because I don't.
Number four: Why do they always get the wrong key first so my next door neighbor and his 8 year old kid can watch me stand by the counter as anxious as can be waiting for this 40 minute process..... when the "actual" process does not take me 40 minutes to begin with.
Number five: The question, "what kind do you want" should be replaced with, "are you 100% white?"
Number six:  Just to make the process a little more of a confidence booster, I buy Magnums 4 times a week (the huge pack) from 4 different places, then go back to my Rite Aid once a month (maybe) and get the kiddy sized ribbed for her condoms. Yeh huge self esteem booster.  So if anyone needs 36 packs of magnums, get at me.

Being a Man

I suppose to realize the struggles of being a man, you need to know what I think the definition of a man is.  I'll give it my best shot.

Taking care of you and your people
Not being afraid to be yourself
Realizing that life isn't just wealth
Having respect for the opposite sex, treating them as they should be
Opening doors, pulling out chairs..... letting them know you care
Showing the world it can not keep you down
Even if you are struggling with your knees on the ground
Praying that one day you will astound
Not just friends and family but people you meet daily
Being a man is being able to admit your mistakes
Being a man is getting it done, by doing as much as it takes
Knowing that you are not perfect but your imperfections are the things that make you who you are
Being comfortable that you're not going to be a rock star
Not being afraid to cry, not being afraid to die, not being able to lie
Relinquishing the fear that you've carried always behind your eyes
Showing love to all, especially those you show it to you
Being a man.... being a man is just being true.


I can only hope that I am able to do all of these things soon.  The easiest of them, the hardest of them.

Just wanted to let you know what I think a Man is so you can understand "The struggle", if any they go through.

But my next couple blogs are going to be like this..... The struggle of a man..... mowing the lawn, on acid, buying condoms with his girlfriend and other ridiculous and fun topics.

The struggles of a white man

...................uhhh............. I guess just feeling inadequate about their lower region?  Oh...and..... no, that's all.

As men....

As men there are many things that we have to do to act as "Good People."  We have to act like we care about what women are talking about, which is one of our biggest struggles to overcome.  But not only that, we have to comprehend what they are saying so we are prepared to answer the questions, that we all know are coming, that she will ask.  I am not saying that listening to women is a horrible thing.  Just listening to women about what they think to be important.  "Do these shoes look good with this hat?" That is probably the best example I can give you.  And the most ridiculous thing to care about on this earth.  Sure, if you were to ask, "How do I look?"  Fine!  No Problem, got that one in the bag... simple... you look great.  But then the questions that she has which apparently came as offsprings to your answer.  "Well Jane said I don't look good in this outfit last week." "I don't think I look good though?  "Are you sure I do"  And then the most ridiculous comment of them all after an hour answering her questions and telling her she looks great..... "Well, you know what, I'm not gonna wear this outfit."  IF YOU HAD ANY DOUBT ABOUT THAT OUTFIT 3 MINUTES IN..... WHY WOULDN'T YOU MAKE UP YOUR MIND THEN?!  Because it wasted an hour of my life that I will never get back and another hour to be thrown out the window is coming once you put on your next ridiculous outfit.  LADIES! PLEASE!  Just help us out a little bit.  Usually we are with you because we love you, not because of the outfits you wear.  Or we are with you because you're just drop dead gorgeous and we have to deal with it to get any lovin'.  Just try and understand what we go through.  So before you ask us next time, really look at yourself in the mirror and think what you think.... if you feel you look good go with it.  Because if we don't and we say it, so goes our relationship.  Thank you for your time.

Info about this blog

This blog will not be confined to anything.  I will be speaking my mind on things I feel are important, funny, or just sometimes writing for the sake of writing.  Please follow and help me as I try to improve my blog daily, thanks again.

 Joe Boy

Why do people judge?

I wish that more of you in this world would realize the pain and suffering that you have caused many people.  Myself, have also committed some terrible acts.  But in the past week four young kids have killed themselves because of being outted as homosexuals, getting terrible texts from people, etc.   I am so upset and disappointed in a nation that is in such a horrible place right now and instead of trying to make things better, they are only getting worse.  I want everyone to think of the worst thing they can remember happening to them and reflect.  We all need to unite and be one.  The beauty in our society is that everyone is a different personality, and just because you don't like that personality does not mean that it is not their right to show it.  Please people we need more love, love leads to happiness and happiness to a greater good.  Thank you for listening and I will be posting blogs every day so please read and feedback.  Much appreciated, be well all.  Be safe and have fun.

 Joe Boy